Look at me, doing yoga on that big rock, over looking that big lake.
Just kidding. I’ve never seen that rock before and I most certainly don’t make a habit of wobbling on one foot on big dangerous looking edges. But I really wish I did.
I have tried and tried and tried to master yoga, but I’m still a bit rubbish. There’s only so far that ‘trying’ can get you when you have quite impressive inflexibility. There are many of the basic things in yoga that I’m simply not very good at.
I think that’s exactly why I’m not very good at it. I tell myself I can’t do it, so I go into a class and confirm to myself that I’m not very good at it, have a little rush of “look at me, I’ve been to yoga” followed by a wave of “but I was rubbish at it”. That then sits in the back of my mind and wriggles away, putting me off going next time. Then I don’t go for a few weeks (or even months) and the overall effect is that I don’t get any better. The same cycle starts again.
I have been to countless yoga classes, so I must be keen on something (or maybe I’m just keen on yoga pants). That makes me think it’s worth the trying. In a class a couple of weeks ago, I couldn’t hold downward dog for as long as every one else (it was an unreasonably long time to hold it if you ask me). My arms started to shudder and I was in a hot sweat as I applied my normal approach to exercise of forcing myself to keep going. Pain is good, right? Pain means it’s working. But then the teacher said “be kind to your body, don’t push it too far if it doesn’t feel right” *watches me wobbling about amidst a sea of serene yogis*. I dropped back down to child’s pose. Gotta love child’s pose. Child’s pose I can do.
Suddenly I was happier again. I held the pose for long enough to push myself, but not so long that I started to really hate yoga. I enjoyed the rest of the class. So, given that this month is National Yoga Month, I have decided to take up a 30 day yoga challenge with my new found philosophy of not forcing anything if it feels like it’s too much. I will give things a go and if I can’t do them or I can’t hold the pose for that long, then that’s fine. This is reigning my brain in to try no pressure yoga. I’ll be wobbling about on that rock in no time…
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